MEMORIES I FEEL BUT CANT REMEBER

MEMORIES I FEEL BUT CAN'T REMEMBER

This painting exists because of a phone call.

After 2.5 years without painting, my dad told me a story I had no memory of.

My mom jumped from a moving car while he was driving.

I was there.

I was in that car.

I still can't remember it.

But I can feel it.

That feeling became this painting.

The sensation of knowing something happened to you while being unable to reach it. A missing piece. A locked room. A memory that exists everywhere except where you're able to see it.

The skull emerged first.

Then the tentacles.

Then the movement.

Black, white, and grey folding into themselves like a thought that refuses to settle.

I wasn't trying to make a finished artwork.

I was trying to find something.

This piece ended a 2.5-year painting drought and became the first step toward everything that followed.

Not because it answered a question.

Because it reminded me that some things can only be understood by making them.

Provenance

• Original hand-painted canvas
• 16 × 24 inches
• One-of-one artwork
• Signed by SHAM
• Includes Certificate of Authenticity
• No prints available